Major Malfunction

I am so tired, but at the same tme, ths is the first time in a while that I don't feel like a zombie. I actually feel like a real person. Being on all my meds has really affected me, and I don't know what I'm going to do. I had a major melt down yesterday, I am so scared. I just wanted to kill myself yesterday, but I didn't. I conquered another day. I guess that means I can be proud.

A couple of months ago, I met a 17 year old in the U.K. He says he wants me to be his girlfriend, but I'm not sure....what should I do?